Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Why haven't I been writing?

I am in a strange place these days.

I'm either really happy and just enjoying it too much to write about it, or I'm cranky and annoyed and don't want to commit anything in writing that I won't want to read later.

Strange, isn't it?

Is there a happy medium or am I destined for one of those roller coaster kinds of lives - where there are amazing highs and frightening lows, but not a whole lot in the middle.

The more I think about it, the more I realize I probably wouldn't want the middle of the road life either, would I? Isn't middle of the road just a nice way of saying routine? Isn't routine just a nice way of saying dull?

OK, so let's say that I'm resigned to a life of mountains and valleys - how do I remind myself when I'm at the bottom of a valley that there's another mountain around the corner? Maybe that's what I needed to put in writing.


Chickenbells said...

Oh yes, this too shall pass. Something good to remember isn't it? But, it's hard to remind yourself when you're feeling sad...and equally as hard when you're happy, to really enjoy it if you're constantly waiting for the other shoe to drop. I think in our culture we are now all running around looking for "balance"...I think balance is a buzzword for "I don't ever want to feel pain...only pleasure" Well, it doesn't work that way. How will you ever know how good the pleasure is if you don't have anything to compare it to? I also don't think you need to live in crazy extremes. I don't know how not to live that way sometimes, but I am learning that to struggle against what is really happening will drive you nuts. It's better to face whatever reality you're living in at the moment, let yourself feel what that brings up and then observe how you can move through it the best way for you...and honey. Your blog is YOUR blog. You are allowed to write whatever you need or want to.

Debbie said...

And I, for one, have missed you. Just don't forget we're here too! No matter whether you're up or down on the rollercoaster ride. Pretty please...